timor prayer night

Last night, I had to pon ATRIA meeting because it coincided with Timor Prayer Night. Siew Lee and Li Shan just returned to Singapore for their sabbatical leave and were able to give an account for their project Cocoon, an English language learning cum library project which they are managing. Other field workers also gave their account of what they had done. A doctor lamented that after he returned home from Luquica, there were no replacement to take his place. As of now, there's no doctor for them to turn to if anyone were to succumb to any critical illness. Whenever he is on duty and treating the local patients, it sort of hurts him more to know that there are none available to serve the Luquica people who needed one more badly than us.

I felt the nudge to write on the card but I did. I stopped short of moving out for altar call. In a sense, I was fearful of doing that. But I told God that I want to honor what I have written and I do not want to back out. I'm not sure when it will happen, but if it does, I'll need a whole lot more courage and faith to move out of the comfort zone and to trust in Him. For how long? only God knows.

I know that I may have set my standards high on my choice of a life-long partner. But I think I have found out the category of the other-half which I had been looking for. She may not be 100% perfect, but she turned out to be someone who loves God wholeheartedly, teachable in spirit, and chooses to carry the Cross daily and follows Him, even if it means to be out in the mission field for the rest of her life.

I don't know if I'm good enough for her. It can be disappointing if it doesn't work out. Choices seem to be very limited in that sense. Oh wells ....

Sigh.....